YAY! So 3 lbs in 6 days, most of which is probably water but Im drinking lots of water and decaf tea so hopefully that is taken care of!
Im really looking forward to a much healthier skinnier me... it makes me giddy. :)
9.11.2011
9.05.2011
And So It Begins
Tomorrow is the first day of school and a BIG schedule change for all of us. My older girls are starting homeschooling, my middle children are starting public school, my husband is starting a new job in a week or so and I am going to start a diet. My younger two can just keep on being growing jolly kiddos (that's their job).
After I had Justus I felt like all moms feel after having a baby- like a sack of dough. The newness of a baby and my un-bump inspired me to lose weight because I certainly didn't want to be wearing my maternity clothes still. Unfortunately, I had a rough postpartum beginning and was held hostage to my bed by a insatiable newborn. I was able to get just to my pre-pregnancy weight (which wasn't my ideal weight to begin with) but battling residual back pain from birth as well as anemia and probably a little pure laziness tossed in there, I haven't been exercising hardly at all this summer. Actually, this is the first summer I think I have hardly been outside.
We also found Cash & Carry which has lots of fatty meats in BULK (great for throwing parties over the 4th of July) and so, we have excess of that. All of that in combination with my love for coffee with sugar and cream has added another 5 lbs to the equation and frankly... I have just given in and said, "Whatever."
But things have to change. I can't decide in the beginning of winter that all of a sudden Im unhappy and need to lose the extra weight because I will be depressed and miserable. I dream about having muscles and looking forward to pushing a little further and all that comes with working out. Right now, Im just dead weight.
So as I say this, my darling husband is asking me if I want some bacon with my eggs... "Of course dear, anything for you!" My last day of indulgence.
So I will be out shopping for groceries so I don't get stuck where I usually do, and that is starting a diet and not having anything in the pantry to eat. I'm starting in Phase 2 of the South Beach Diet because I'm still nursing Justus and I dont want to hurt my milk supply or his/my nutrients.
Grocery List:
After I had Justus I felt like all moms feel after having a baby- like a sack of dough. The newness of a baby and my un-bump inspired me to lose weight because I certainly didn't want to be wearing my maternity clothes still. Unfortunately, I had a rough postpartum beginning and was held hostage to my bed by a insatiable newborn. I was able to get just to my pre-pregnancy weight (which wasn't my ideal weight to begin with) but battling residual back pain from birth as well as anemia and probably a little pure laziness tossed in there, I haven't been exercising hardly at all this summer. Actually, this is the first summer I think I have hardly been outside.
We also found Cash & Carry which has lots of fatty meats in BULK (great for throwing parties over the 4th of July) and so, we have excess of that. All of that in combination with my love for coffee with sugar and cream has added another 5 lbs to the equation and frankly... I have just given in and said, "Whatever."
But things have to change. I can't decide in the beginning of winter that all of a sudden Im unhappy and need to lose the extra weight because I will be depressed and miserable. I dream about having muscles and looking forward to pushing a little further and all that comes with working out. Right now, Im just dead weight.
So as I say this, my darling husband is asking me if I want some bacon with my eggs... "Of course dear, anything for you!" My last day of indulgence.
So I will be out shopping for groceries so I don't get stuck where I usually do, and that is starting a diet and not having anything in the pantry to eat. I'm starting in Phase 2 of the South Beach Diet because I'm still nursing Justus and I dont want to hurt my milk supply or his/my nutrients.
Grocery List:
- Turkey and Canadian bacon
- Sugar free Jell-O
- Lettuce & Salad gear
- Veggies from my list
- Chicken breasts and fish
- Nuts (for snacks)
- Low fat string cheese & shredded cheese
- Part-skim ricotta cheese Splenda or other sugar substitute
9.01.2011
Lost Little Girl of My Past
My mom recently posted some footage of me as a little girl and I had to cover my eyes and blush. I was a total geek and every goal in my life was driven by my fantasy-world of Barbie dolls.
"Say, "hi" to your future husband, Jennie!" My mom called out to me.
"Hiiii Ken!" I replied.
But in watching the video I also realized how much of myself I had lost in so many ways. I had a tough childhood and, in a way, I was my own best friend for a long time. Sometime after hitting puberty I lost that energy I had earlier so much of that I had to be put on medicine. My new self was sort of made into a new energy... that wasn't physical. Socially I was very awkward, so I steered clear of any sports and headed towards music, which I loved.
Seeing the images of me when I was 9 inspires me to keep in touch with that lost little girl of my past.
"Say, "hi" to your future husband, Jennie!" My mom called out to me.
"Hiiii Ken!" I replied.
But in watching the video I also realized how much of myself I had lost in so many ways. I had a tough childhood and, in a way, I was my own best friend for a long time. Sometime after hitting puberty I lost that energy I had earlier so much of that I had to be put on medicine. My new self was sort of made into a new energy... that wasn't physical. Socially I was very awkward, so I steered clear of any sports and headed towards music, which I loved.
Seeing the images of me when I was 9 inspires me to keep in touch with that lost little girl of my past.
...and then there was 7!
So....! Well, I kind of got really busy and found out that we were due with baby #7 a bit after I decided to go for the Couch2 5k , so you can imagine that didn't happen.
Baby Justus was born May 6th, 2011 21 mos after Emmalia! He is a handsome fellow and since I am exclusively breastfeeding without ANY formula what-so-ever, I am being careful about how soon I start my weightloss goals.
I'm back to 150lbs now and having 12 years of pregnancy has not been kind to weight melting off of me. This past birth also has not been kind to my body, so Im recovering a lot slower than I have in the past. Justus' birth was not the sweet wham-bam-thank-you-ma'am I had with Emma. It was more traumatic, and I am pretty sure God was preparing me to feel done.
This whole summer I have had very little drive to do much about exercise. I dont know if it is the fact that Im so tired or that Justus eats every 3 hours or.. that Im just not ready to torture myself, but I'm kicking myself knowing what the winters are going to be like and how hard its going to be to try and get healthy THEN.
School is starting soon and as I have chosen to homeschool my 2 older girls, I am going to make a point in going on morning walks with them as part of our PE. Just have to follow through. :)
-Jyn
Baby Justus was born May 6th, 2011 21 mos after Emmalia! He is a handsome fellow and since I am exclusively breastfeeding without ANY formula what-so-ever, I am being careful about how soon I start my weightloss goals.I'm back to 150lbs now and having 12 years of pregnancy has not been kind to weight melting off of me. This past birth also has not been kind to my body, so Im recovering a lot slower than I have in the past. Justus' birth was not the sweet wham-bam-thank-you-ma'am I had with Emma. It was more traumatic, and I am pretty sure God was preparing me to feel done.
This whole summer I have had very little drive to do much about exercise. I dont know if it is the fact that Im so tired or that Justus eats every 3 hours or.. that Im just not ready to torture myself, but I'm kicking myself knowing what the winters are going to be like and how hard its going to be to try and get healthy THEN.
School is starting soon and as I have chosen to homeschool my 2 older girls, I am going to make a point in going on morning walks with them as part of our PE. Just have to follow through. :)
-Jyn
5.22.2008
Mmmmm, is that sun?
So, summer is FINALLY starting to show it's here and I am at 135.
I have been really pigging out on carbs lately. Man, I love the burrito supreme at Taco Bell...
I love candy, and Coffee with sugar and cream... yeah all that does me in.
But it's time to get with it and try and get healthy again. YAY! I'll be able to go jogging once it stops raining!
I have all the kids here for 5 days without school. It's a 5 day weekend, but extra work for me since I'll be making extra meals all week.
BREAKFAST:
egg with garlic powder 1/3rd a small tomato and about a cup of sauteed brocoli in olive oil with garlic powder. I drank coffee with splenda and 1% milk
LUNCH:
dark green salad lettuce with my peanut sauce (1 tblspn of lowfat peanut butter, olive oil, a pintch of splenda and some ginger powder)and nonfat cheese with lightly sauteed lowfat beef. I drank water this time and had some nonfat ricotta with lemon flavor and splenda
Im beat. PHEW!
Ready to take a nap...
I have been really pigging out on carbs lately. Man, I love the burrito supreme at Taco Bell...
I love candy, and Coffee with sugar and cream... yeah all that does me in.
But it's time to get with it and try and get healthy again. YAY! I'll be able to go jogging once it stops raining!
I have all the kids here for 5 days without school. It's a 5 day weekend, but extra work for me since I'll be making extra meals all week.
BREAKFAST:
egg with garlic powder 1/3rd a small tomato and about a cup of sauteed brocoli in olive oil with garlic powder. I drank coffee with splenda and 1% milk
LUNCH:
dark green salad lettuce with my peanut sauce (1 tblspn of lowfat peanut butter, olive oil, a pintch of splenda and some ginger powder)and nonfat cheese with lightly sauteed lowfat beef. I drank water this time and had some nonfat ricotta with lemon flavor and splenda
Im beat. PHEW!
Ready to take a nap...
9.21.2007
What a photographer's job is.
So, what my job is as a photographer is to make images that create emotion and a connection between my shots and my viewers. I personally, am not a shock photographer. I don't post uncomfortable shots very often if at all and certainly not unflattering ones of myself. So when people look at my videos and my images and say, "BAH, Jyn you look just FINE.." I get flustered. Sure I look fine, its a photograph where I held myself just so and photoshopped certain things just so, so that it was pleasing to the eye. I don't alter my images to the extent of them NOT looking at all like the original, but I do take out acny, certain flaws, bruises, I touch up my makeup, etc.
So, I'm not looking straight on with my flappy wings hanging in front of you for you to see the weight I need to lose.
Also, I tend to have a lot of people excuse away my extra weight with the fact that I have had 5 kids. Thats not an excuse to look like you had five kids, I shouldn't have to resolve to that. I really would like people to stop telling me that as if looking healthy is unrealistic for a mom of five. It's not.
-Jyn